I had initially wanted to blog on the new year,but better late then never yah?

What's new year without a resolution to begin with?I had mine the previous years as well.But I always failed to fulfil it.It's just like a trend to have resolutions without wanting to put it into actions.For me,at least.Take 2009 for example,I said I decided to not skip sch anymore.It was just empty talk.I did it again.And it only made me feel bad about myself.As though I'm not trustworthy,I cant even do what I promised myself and It bugged on my conscience. So from now on,I'm not gonna make any promises anymore.

A few weeks ago, I had a dream.Which I could not recall the exact event that took place but when I woke up, it was as though I had been slapped out of my sleep. I was dumb struck for a few minutes before I thought I was sane again. I couldnt get back to sleep at all.Ironic as it may sound but my mind ran through a whole series of events in my life,big and small. Tears just keep rolling down.I was totally overwhelmed by it.

I couldn't stress this enough to anyone who by chance happens to read this. Treasure your family. It may sound cliche. But I meant well. The loss of my father was by far the hardest and still are the biggest blow to my family. I can never explain the pain in my heart. Some have shared that they understand how it feels since they have had deaths in their family before. But again,you can never,never understand the feeling unless it's your own father. Though I sincerely accept their kind thoughts and words. It is just not something that can be compare with.

In less than a month's time I will be turning 21.A rather big number for someone like me.Truth be told,I was expecting mother to celebrate it.My late father used to say "We'll celebrate your 21st birthday besar-besar ok?"Maybe that was the reason why I am hoping for something.But Mother blatantly told me, she chose not to.I was upset but I've come to terms with it. She have her reasons.I'm sure she do.But she has promised me our traditional birthday celebrations;celebrate outdoors with a simple family meal. I'm fine. :)

Ahhhh...the time has come..For me to sleeepppp...

Good Night.

I suddenly remembered I have an abandoned blog. It's a pity this blog has always been the place which bore the brunt of my boredom. But i believe some eventually bored people would come and pay a visit to my blog,so I'll keep doing what I do best then.Nyeh..

2 most unforgettable days this year.

18 Oct 2009

Finally, after 3 weeks of waiting, 18 Oct has arrived. Maman and Me went to watch Impak Maksima the Musical and it was great. It was funny,it was cool,the drift on stage was the coolest thing I've ever seen, but of it all, it was worth the bucks. I have loved musicals ever since my virgin trip to the Puteri Gunung Ledang the musical and I know we cant afford to make Impak Maksima an exception. Oh my,it was just great. I cant even expressed it in werds. The whole thing blew me away. Untill now. That's why I cant yak about the whole thing like I sometimes do.

But of all the fabulous moments of the musical, the solo singing from Adeep was 'menusuk ke kalbu'. His voice touched my heart,nerves, brains and whathaveyous.I think rahman loved it too.
I was contemplating on Simfoni sumting and Impak Maksima, after all, its a gift to rahman for his b'dae. He instantly voted for Impak. As we discussed, seeing celebrities sing seems like a normal show to us but to miss the drift on stage is something we felt we would regret.And we were glad we went for it.

19 Oct 2009

Rahman told me about visiting Mr Yusof, my secondary 3 malay teacher and ironically we are related.So I want to meet my relative. Together with Faris and Salim. We heard about him not feeling well lately and decided to pay him a visit. Moreover, he stays in Gelang Patah Johor Baru. It was last minute though so while we have the transport(Salim's car), we went ahead with the plan. The moment we reached his beautiful abode, we stepped out of the car, he slowly points to each one of us and says out our name for acknowledgement.

When it comes to me,I just smiled waiting for him to call me "fatimah/nurul/siti hawa" but he says "Farah..". I was beaming with joy and I cant stop. I did not expect him to remember me but well, he did. So it was just a normal raya visit. We ate,laughed,chatted and kepo-ed around his house. Just as we thought it was time to make a move, he brought us around to a mini tour of gelang patah and nusajaya and around his housing estate facilities. But we had to cut short the tour because we are rushing for time. Can't wait to pay him another visit coz i felt he expected us to stay longer. I was shocked when he wanted me to drive his car/van coz he wanted to see me drive. But I told him, I dont think I am able to since I've got short legs and I dont think I can reach the pedal. -.-

It was a nice visit. Alhamdullillah, niat nak visit cikgu dah tercapai..

These 2 experiences are something I felt not being able to express in words. They are priceless.

I am just glad I still have the chance to do this while I still can.

Come tomorrow would be 2 weeks since sch started.

Something different this semester though.I love almost all modules.With exception to OP2.But Faci says I have to learn to fall in love with it. So ok,that will come later. Because of my love to almost all the modules this sem. I am kinda not reluctant at all to go for sch. I used to think sleeping at home was better off than going to sch some daes before but now, I am looking forward to sleeping in the bus to and fro school. Yes, I mean it.

I even told my friends that I am going to change for the better this semester and that is to attend school for the whole 10 weeks till the next vacation comes. I mean business this time.

Had some serious thoughts done over the weeks I had before sch reopen. The results I got for last semester was contented. I am certain,if I had attended lessons more often, my grades and GPA would have reflected nicely in the results.

I wouldnt want to feel that regret once more. It's time to change. I remembered attending Adam Khoo's workshop when I was in Sec 4 and I remember this speaker, Stuart, who said something like;Dont waste time being at a place you dont want to be and you dont cherish it when there are others who wanted to be in your place badly and dont even have the chance to.Dont take things for granted. Think of your parents.

Because that sentence was the one that triggered my tears to flow, I had that sentence etched in my brain.

So yah, I am not trying to sound like one big ****. But look at it as I am trying to change for the better yah. So dont be discouraging.

Ahh..dah alang kepalang ni..lepaskan la geram ku sekali...

Hidup kene tau ambil iktibar, jangan asek nak mengeji orang eh. Cermin sikit diri dulu ye. Jadi manusia, hati jangan busuk. Kalao dah hidup jadi orang yang boleh bagi perangsang kepada yang lain baru boleh bebual eh.Kalao tak,kamu hanya boleh dianggap sebagai tin kosong.

I think my malay like cock up la..but never mind la..Anyway, that was just a thought off my mind. I believe in live and let live. But sometimes there are people who would, you know, irks you a little bit. I mean, what's wrong with being nice? You will never know there may come a day where you need this people whom you've been stucking up ur nose to and they will come to give you help when you need it badly.

Aiyaaa..but I guess this kind of people just wont even understand what's being civilised also..

Oh hello!

This raya season seem a tad too different feeling.

Or maybe I havent been doing much thus the feeling?

But anyway,here's the story.

Promised to go to the market with mother the day before raya to get all the lontongs and ketupats. But, I had a stomach upset and it was killing me. Well,almost la. I was bed bounded till night. Couldnt do my usual eve of raya duties. Vacuum,mop,wiping all glass material,clean the toilets. Couldnt even fast the last day of fasting.

Anyway,it was bad. What would usually take my family to complete all the preparations by 6 every year was stretched till 2am in the morning.Ouh no..This is absolutely no exaggeration.Felt bad somehow,because not only I cant do all my duties above and help out with the rest,can't even help mother with the curtains,the carpet,the arranging of the kuihs, they had to divide these works among themselves. =(

We all thought I was gona get better the next day,also mark THE Hari Raya day.But I even had to visit Mr Docter before setting out for visiting to relatives house.And so the explanation for my upset tummy,it was food poisoning.*Frown*

Docter: No milk products for you in the time being.Try to avoid cow's milk.But Soya Bean can la.
Me to mother: *Whisper*So spicy things can is it?
Mother:*cruk cruk*
Docter: Sorry?
Me:Ouh,ok.No milk.No cow's milk.Soya bean can.

And being me,I'm a huge fan of my auntie,mama munah's,sambal goreng.Every year without fail,that's what I would go for with at least two servings when I'm shy.More when I'm given tapao home.Muahahahaha.

So ape lagi,I bantai my mama munah's sambal goreng!Well yeah,only to have my tummy protesting for the whole dae resulting in me not eating anything at all in the following houses.But,with the sambal goreng safely in my upset tummy,I have no regrets.Humph.

Ouh,and I did not send messages wishing everyone,so whoever that happens to read,dah on the way,farah cakap kat sini sahaja la yer...

Selamat Hari Raya all my lovely friends and relatives,Farah minta maaf atas segala kesalahan dan dosa farah terhadap semua dari hujung rambut hingga hujung kaki.Kalau ader ter-mengumpat ke,ter-ketawekan,ter-ejek,ter-jeling,ter-marah,ter-tengking,terguris hati awak semua,maaf kan la saya ye..Halal kan makan minum saya..Jangan marah marah lagi la ok..Heeeee..


Selamat Hari Raya Semua!To those who msged me,thank you!To those unknown numbers who I couldnt ask in time also,thank you!To those on the msn,facebook and friendly strangers at my void deck also,thank you!

K Go.

It's confirmed.

My eyesight is really failing me.

1st, on the day of my tp test,I mistook bus no. 19 for no.18.

2nd, at the fruit stall, i 'saw' 2 honeydews selling for $15,when it was just for 5 bucks.

3rd, I thought I saw a cat on the corridor when it was actually a rug(somehow folded in which it looked as though its the shape of a cat crawling), which has the same colour as a cat would. I was slowly walking avoiding the 'cat' and when I got nearer was then I realised it's the rug.

At times when mother needs me to read something off a board like the price of a mee goreng for instance,would make me look silly,with me protruding my face a little forward and squinted eyes, so most of the times I would go,"tk tau eh.Tak nmpk." Read:"Dono eh.Can't see". Which she would assume I'm too lazy to even read off the board. -.-.

Tried on my glasses which I have had all this while,but,uh-oh,they dont werk on me anymore. :S

Personally, I do not want to wear glasses. I dont even wear the ones I have.And Yes,it is also my ego. Because someone whom I dont really like wears glasses. And someone loves girls who wear glasses. But I dont want to be like the girl who wears glasses and I dont want to be love because I wear glasses. Get it?Hahaha. I've once said I'd rather go blind than to wear glasses. Maybe I'd revise that decision of mine.Not on a hypocritical basis. But I'll ponder on that a little more. Coz this will probably change my life forever.And truth be told,this is something I would need before I make more mockery out of myself.

Oh,what a tough one.

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